Celebrating a Year

August 10, 2012

with 4 comments

I’ve been reflecting on betrayal for the past few days, not a pastime I recommend. But if you have ever been cruelly and totally betrayed, you will understand what a difficult scab it is to leave alone. Especially for logical folks, who always want to know why, although there is no reason. And for kind folks, who don’t understand premeditated lies, even when they can not deny them. Loss is survivable, failure can be explained, but betrayal is without solution. It is just a hole in the fabric of life that defies repair, and never gets smaller no matter how joyfully time weaves the future. We build bridges across the chasms so we can move ahead. But the depths remain, part of our definition, markers carved in stone– turn right at the chasm and head straight on. And so we do, always dreading the inevitable day a bend in the road will drag us back to contemplate our insoluble destruction one more time.

Written by mairmusic

August 12, 2012 at 11:43 pm

Posted in August

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  1. As a Scorpio…I have no forgiveness for betrayal and like you although I attempt to block out the past events…I relive them..feeding the fuel of my unforgiving attitude…so much for that “forgive and forget” stuff.

    slpmartin

    August 13, 2012 at 6:29 pm

    • Yep, not going to happen. Why do friends say one has to forgive to heal? It’s more important to live honestly.

      mairmusic

      August 13, 2012 at 9:47 pm

  2. some scars never healt. all we can do is check ourselves from putting our fingers in them.

    Sharmishtha Basu

    August 14, 2012 at 4:02 am


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